The Man I Used To Love

The Man I Used To Love

July 26^th-July 28^th, 2009

 I wrote this one out of fantasy,

but very important subject.

I just can’t save you now.

You’re going around in circles

Wondering where all you’re money went.

You’re calling all you’re friends

And driving us crazy with you’re hatred.

You’re doing things to you’re yourself

That I can’t even dream of.

All the pills that you take,

All the promises that you never keep,

And all that I tears I cry

Over the man I used to love.

Pre-Chorus:

You’re throwing you’re life away,

You’re best friend is you’re drug dealer.

The only family you have left is me,

You’re throwing you’re life away

All I see on your face

Is a world full of sorrow & regret,

Please god, bring my angel back to me.

Chorus:

This is the man I used to love,

This is the soul I used to admire,

Gone are the dreams we used to have

I wonder if the man I loved

Will ever come back again.

You use to bring me gifts of pleasure,

Now, all I see are sights of torture.

Blood on your used syringes

That white, powdered substance on

Our coffee table.

All the commotion, all the fights,

We never make love anymore.

You’re sinking faster into debt,

You’re only desire is more drugs,

You can’t hold down a job,

You hardly spend time with your family anymore.

Pre-Chorus

Chorus

I pray for you every night

That you will snap out of you’re funk.

I realize it’s just a dream

And I have to wake up soon,

And walk out that door.

The Cliff

The Cliff

(Dedicated to Brett)

12/01/2008-12/06/2008

Sort of a tear-jerker.

The young stud grew up a hottie,

He just had that blonde, blue-eyed ‘natural’ look.

Had the body of a god,

And the smile of an angel. 

He studied for some time and became

An expert at fitness and exercise,

And that helped him become a movie star.

He set it upon himself to be not only an actor,

But, a teacher and performer of fitness.

Pre-Chorus:

But, the choices he made behind the scenes

Put too much trauma on his body…

Perhaps, no one at all could foresee

The events that the future would hold.

Chorus:

The Cliff was so steep,

And he could not come back

From the fall…

Into the pit of black

Is where his body now lies.

His soul was strong,

But his heart was weak…

He is now forever lost

In a depression of solitude.

The stud got married to his high school sweet-heart,

And it all seemed like happily ever after.

With the ring on his finger,

He walked proudly down his street at night…

Never insulting another person,

Never committing a crime against humanity.

But the choices he made when he was away

Put too much weight on his shoulders.

With all the fans in the world he had,

It seems he risked far too much.

Repeat Chorus

Solitude.

He never woke up on Sunday Morning.

The angel the world fell in love with just lied there

Without a breath left in his body.

All the party drugs he took the night before

Had taken their toll on his giant heart.

Strain

Strain

January 31^st, 2009

This one is a bit different. :)

The world is full of pain,

And, it can be so hard to restrain

All the rage I feel

When I see the news every morning,

Businesses are closing down every second,

And, I know my fate is on the line,

But, I know as long as I have you as my friend,

That I will be just fine..

My mind is full of strain

When my customers complain.

All the paranoia the world is in,

Now that the stock market has crashed

And put us in serious doubt.

Our country is in trouble

And I know I don’t trust these politicians.

But, I know as long as I’m in bed with you,

That my heart won’t feel cold again.

I had been crying for so long,

Before you put your hand around me

And led me down the path of victory.

It certainly cost me a lot

And I certainly paid the price

To find my way down this road.

Our life is full of strain,

And this recession is crippling us,

With all the money we’re losing

It seems we’ll never be able

To make sense of the economy anymore.

Every month I count my money

And every month I have to sell something else,

But,  I know as long as you’re my husband,

That I can go on, that I can go on.

But, I feel such strain.

Revenge

Revenge

August 12^th, 2009

Dedicated to: A Liar.

You can tell them anything you want to,

Make up lies about me,

Stir up some controversy,

It really doesn’t matter to me.

Karma is gonna catch up to you eventually.

Pre-Chorus:

You might appear strong to them,

But we both know you’re weak.

You’ve been hateful & judging for so long

That you can’t feel pain anymore.

Oh, the sun doesn’t shine on you anymore.

Chorus:

You might call me insane

But you can’t make claims

Without proof to back it up.

I may not deliver the greatest news

But what I bring is the truth

And, if you can’t handle it.

Then please get the fuck out,

Please get out!

You can call my friends up

Act like you’re a know-it-all,

Make a fool of yourself,

And yet, you haven’t bruised me yet.

You’re down-fall is so near,

I can see it now.

Pre-Chorus

Chorus

My revenge is not a deliberate attack,

Instead, I’m going to watch you bury yourself.

You’re going to be driving down

The street someday,

And run yourself straight off a cliff.

Relentless

Relentless

12/10/2009-12/12/2009

This one is a nice positive change from my usual! :)

It may be cold outside,

But that won’t stop me from getting what I want.

I may be shivering,

But I won’t let my fears swallow me whole.

Pre-Chorus:

I am relentless,

And I’ll never stop

Going for my dreams.

I am relentless

And you know I’ll never

Give up on my pursuit for prominence.

Chorus:

There may be obstacles in my way,

But, they will not come between me and my goal…

The world may never know a man like me again…

Who put his convictions before anything else…

When I walk down the street,

I know everybody will turn their head

Cause the world has never known a man

As courageous as me.

When I open up my eyes in the morning,

I know that I’ve got it made,

Even when I’m dirt-broke

And have nothing at all to my name.

Pre-Chorus

Chorus

Bridge

I told myself to go on and never look back,

To keep running into the future

Cause you never know what opportunities await.

Running into the future,

I may trip along the way a couple of times,

But, I know I will find just what I need

At exactly the right time.

I am relentless,

And I will not give up!

I am relentless.