Thursday, February 28, 2013

Objections



Objections
09/05/2011


                My problem with society is also problems I see within’ myself. I think this era of only communicating with people via email, facebook, im, etc… is actually bringing our people further and further apart. I believe it psychologically harms us by not giving us enough direct contact with each other, and having real in person experiences. I believe it also gives an increase in criminal behavior and dishonesty, because anybody can go online and lie about who they are, their age, what their circumstances are and stuff like that, but they can also easily hack into accounts, company web-sites, they can steal identies, and money, destroying credit and ruining lives.
                If anybody today tries to date online, chances are you will grow impatient and sick and tired of mis-communications. Whether it’s getting into a texting war with someone, or being rejected online when you could have been accepted if you actually had met the person face to face. Society has always been cold, the way we reject people based on looks alone, or how we insist on placing everyone into different groups still puzzles me to this day. I would have hoped that our species would have advanced by now. But, with the rise of online technology, it’s become even easier to bully or harass an individual. My hope for society is that we will one day, be able to love and respect one another equally, and not choose favorites!
                What this world needs is to be brought together, to bridge the gap in communication, but it seems like we may be getting farther and farther apart. Not only do social web-sites stunt our growth, but it also makes us lazier, and eventually fatter. All the internet games, gambling (online or casino), porn, online dating web-sites, and all social web-sites are taking us away from the important issues we should be focusing on, like our spouse, our families and taking aim at our career.
We need to get ourselves, our kids, and our spouses away from the computer, and the television and get ourselves outside much more often. Perhaps walk around our own neighborhood, and say hello to a neighbor or two. Our western culture is entirely focused on the self, and so many of us just stay boarded up in our own home, paying attention to our own needs and desires, and ignoring others. However, if we accepted others into our life’s and listened to their stories, then we would have more friends, more support and we would end up living a longer, healthier, more fulfilling life!
If you are reading this right now, and you feel you may be guilty of any of this, take a look around you, and notice all the beautiful walks of life around you. See how wonderful it can be to look at humans on an individual basis, and not use bias, or stereotypes. This is what every human being should do! If we did this for just five minutes a day, we would have a much more accepting society, with less hatred and bias, and our world would benefit greatly from it!!!

Friday, February 22, 2013

Mile After Mile



Mile After Mile
12/25/2011


I see foot-steps in the dirt and mud,
Reminding me of the work I’ve put in.
Time after time, in this life of mine,
I’ve walked alone.
I don’t ask another soul for help.
I don’t feel sorry for myself.
I just continue being strong…
Walking alone.

Pre-Chorus:
There was a time when I would ask for help,
But, I felt like I put way too much effort,
And came off as being too desperate and co-dependent.
So, I began to walk alone in this desert,
I learned how to keep myself hydrated,
And I knew I would reach my destination eventually.

Chorus:
Every once in a while I’ll take a break,
So I can rest my knees, and think about this life…
Think about why it’s treated me so unfairly,
But, eventually, I conclude it doesn’t matter,
And I continue my journey mile after mile,
Alone, I’m always walking alone…

The sunshine comes across my face,
As the day is beginning to fade,
Soon the wolves will howl at the moon,
And I know it will be evening time.
As I walk along,
I notice I have developed a farmer’s tan,
Right around my ankles,
From wearing shorts on these walks,
And cruising in the summer-time.

As I came down through the city of American Fork,
I feel both accomplished and relived
That I’m about to reach my door-step.
The pain in my legs is from my knees to my hips,
But, I don’t stop, no, I never stop until victory is mine.
I walk alone.

Pre-Chorus
Chorus  (x2)

That night, I dreamt a magnificent dream,
Where my walks alone gave me acclaim and respect,
Of at least one soul, and he, would never leave my side,
And he would put his arm around me for the rest of my life.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Love Liberates



Love Liberates
01/09/2012
A piece that's rather lengthy. 

How can you possibly find love,
When you can’t even love yourself?
It’s so sad how much your poor attitude
Really destroys your opportunities…

I was so young, and weak in life,
I got into some messes I’m not proud of.
I dated someone I never loved,
I simply just wanted to change him…
I kept on having arguments with you,
Cause I didn’t love myself.
I simply couldn’t find the strength
To tell you how I really felt about you.

And then, came the day, I found out what you really were,
I did a lot of investigating on you…
I saw the paper, and I heard the words from your mouth.
A compulsive liar you are, I knew you could never tell the truth.
I was both crazy and stupid to get involved with you.
How many people did you rape and steal from in your life-time?
How can you expect to find love and romance,
When you can’t even love yourself?

As I lay myself down to sleep that night,
I dreamt of epic visions of survival and destiny,
And I woke up crying and in that moment of revelation,
I heard your voice in my head,
And you said:
“I will move to a place, and will have some success there,
But, it’s the second place I move to where I’ll be most profitable of all.”

I believed in this vision I had,
I interpreted it as my destiny,
To shift my direction else-where,
Or else I would be nothing in that mad-house.
You simply cannot learn anything staying in the same place,
Markus, you must, explore you’re surroundings to grow,
How can you possibly find love,
When you don’t even love yourself?

So I left you and all your demons behind.
Like so many men before, you had betrayed me,
And destroyed the relationship with your anger.
I found myself running, eternally running away,
I ran to a town where I could escape,
Be relatively un-noticed and un-bothered,
And I attempted to heal my paranoia
By shutting myself down.

I was very scared to date again,
Or even hang out with a soul…
So, I just stayed in my room,
Sometimes crying, but mostly sulking,
And wondering why I do this to myself,
Deny myself opportunity
Just to teach myself a lesson,
About showing integrity, and honesty.

After I was hospitalized, and afterwards injured,
I thought life was being un-fair.
Then, when I saw, my greatest friend of all-time
Pass away in a car accident, I just wanted to pull my hair out.
I sunk into my introverted self, ended up messing up a career
That was aimed to be my comeback.

After I was suspended from work, I just sulked into my shell,
I was free-falling, and I just didn’t care anymore what became of me.
But as time passed, I would go on and retire from the company,
And I would commit to random online-habits,
Not really contributing anything to my community.

How can I possibly find love and success,
When I’m not loving myself right now?
I’ve been through a lot in life,
And this is definitely an experience I’ll grow from,
But, how could I possibly find love,
After losing you so suddenly…
Markus, Markus, Markus…
It’s your attitude that prohibits you
From finding long-term relationships,
And prosperity in life.

So there I was, just before winter had started,
Going on a couple interviews where I did strongly,
And re-gaining a friendship that was very significant to me,
I was clearly rising again from the abyss.
I began healing once more through chanting techniques,
And I made the declaration to myself that I was no longer
Going to be down on myself, and feeling hopeless,
I was going to get my dreams going,
And do everything to make myself a success.

And then out of the corner of my eye,
I saw you, and how beautiful you were.
You were kind and honest to me,
And I ran to you, and we started our life together.
A brand new life, an alternative to the loner-attitude
I had held before.

He grabbed me by the hand,
And walked with me along the beach,
And when he pulled the ring out,
I knew I had to marry him.
I said I Do immediately,
And we made love right there
In the wet sand.

I had found love,
But I had to love myself first.
It’s amazing how much your attitude on life
Affects you so greatly! J

Friday, February 15, 2013

Liberation



Liberation
01/09/2012-02/16/2012
Dedicated to: Harrison Archibald

It’s too bad, our paths couldn’t have met at another time,
A time when I was weaker, and needing a friend,
But, when it came time for me to rise again,
You were the one that inspired me
To let the past go, and live once again!
I guess this is my way of saying thank you!

You inspired me, to go above and beyond,
To reach for the sky and never look back,
To look inside and find the passion of my soul,
To find the love for myself, that I denied myself for ages…
And then only then, could I find another soul…
Capable of loving me…
And the story goes like this.                                                                                                                                   

I’ve had a lot of grief in my life,
Pain and discomfort had enveloped me…
I was crawling to every destination,
Ignoring every opportunity that came my way.

I did the same thing every day, every way,
I stayed stuck at a job I was never going to excel at,
Taking the same bus every single day,
Until you allowed me to see,
The way it could be,
Once I make room for liberation.

Before, I would just whine about my situation,
But eventually, I found the strength to move on,
Just a simple meditation every night,
And a couple phenomenal friendships
And I was able to function so much better,
Than I had before.

It led me to find happiness and success in life,
It led me to finish this book of poetry,
And it led me to find the man of my dreams! J

And, Harrison, I love you for showing me this,
We’ve never met before,
 But I followed your advice and philosophies,
And Now I am liberated for all time!

Thank You!arrH

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Let's Chill For Awhile



Let’s Chill For Awhile
12/20/2011
Dedicated to: Adolfas Z.


Baby, if you could only see,
How beautiful you are to me,
And how much you have set me free…
Then, you would smile again,
And you’d be my very best friend.

This is the story of Adolfas Z…

When I sit back and chill for the evening,
My mind starts to wander,
And all my thoughts center around,
The man I fell in love with.

There wasn’t much I could do,
You came back into my life,
Became a great friend,
And have supported my every struggle.
How could I possibly reject you,
When you are so dam sexy?
How could I possibly leave you now,
When you mean so much to me.

Adolfas Z,
Why are you sad today?
Can’t you see you brighten up my days,
Cause you’re so beautifully unique and crazy.
Just put away your fears for just one night,
I’m not like those other guys,
And, I’ll do my best not to bite,
How about you and I just chill for a while?

Baby, if you would believe,
In what you could achieve,
I know you’d reach farther than you have.
I’ll always believe in you,
No matter what stunts you pull,
Or games you like to play,
I feel I know the real you,
Beneath all the lies, and acts.
To me you are just Adolfas Z.

If you could only see,
How unique you are to me,
And how our friendship has given me strength.
Then, you could be healthy again,
And stop all this dam drama!!! J

Believe me,
I’ve been there before!