Saturday, September 29, 2012

Waiting To Be Saved



Waiting To Be Saved
01/23/2010-01/29/2010
This one is a bit too repetitive,
but still interesting to me. :)

Yes, I’m on my own,
So scared that I’ll be alone forever.
I date and date and date,
But nobody of good nature will stay with me.
Sure, you may like to be inside me,
But, you never want to stay with me,
Why do these boys always leave me alone?

Pre-Chorus:
I’m not alone in what I want,
I’m not the only one who feels alone like this.
I can tell my fellow friends and neighbors
Are going through the same dis-satisfaction I’m going through.
We’re all reaching our hands out to the sky
Waiting for our souls to be saved…

Chorus:
Every night I walk out onto my balcony
And wonder why the world is so cold.
My fellow brothers and sisters continue
To murder each other over nothing at all.
We came into this world for unknown reasons,
And we must all leave it at some point,
So why do we go on trying to hurt each other?
If only we could stay closer together…

You come over every other week or so,
But, you can’t commit to me.
You like to hold me for a while,
But soon you try to escape your feelings,
And you leave me alone again.
Why can’t you just stay with me the whole night through?

Pre-Chorus
Chorus

Why is it so hard
To find the one who will love me?
I will talk about it,
But, when the subject is brought up,
You just shrug your shoulders
And walk out the door.
Why is it so difficult for me
To move on to somebody who’s worth my time?

Pre-Chorus
Chorus

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Three Years



Three Years
05/25/2009-06/10/2009
For Kenny.


We like to go slow,
It is like our philosophy.
We never took it fast,
We never rushed a thing,
And after so much time spent together,
I feel I found a brother, a partner, a lover.

Over 3 years ago, I remember standing out in the cold,
Waiting for you to answer the door for the first time.
And, when you did, it was the most beautiful smile,
The most beautiful personality I’d ever seen.

Through all the triumphs and failures we’ve experienced
Along the way, you have not only watched me grow up,
But you have been partly responsible for me maturing
Into the dynamic man I have become.

We may have our similar tastes, but for the most part
We are different.
We are both inspired by each other,
And that helps keep us strong.
In a world full of lies,
Everybody needs a shoulder they can rest their head on.

Every night I know there is one man I can call
When I’m not in the best mood,
Or when I need to get something off my chest.
And every night I can dream when I can walk down the aisle with you
Because I know no other man is right for me.
And, we can be the ultimate couple other gay people  can look up to.

Baby, I love you.

Friday, September 21, 2012

The Tragedy Part II



The Tragedy Part II
July 31st-August 5th, 2009
This is the conclusion to the true story. ;)


My barefoot has hit the soil
Of the outside world again.
I feel the fresh breeze over my face,
This is the first air I’ve been
Able to breathe in ten long years.

I walk down the streets
I use to walk down,
The places I use to commit crime.
I go to the houses of my ex-girlfriends,
The places where you & I
Used to make love.
It all seems so far away now.

I’ve been given a second chance,
I’ve gotten myself a golden opportunity
To make something of my life
Before it’s too late.
I’ve been given a second chance,
And I pray to God I won’t lose it.

I remember the days of old when
I use to hold you’re hand
Walking through this  park.
The birds were singing up in the trees
And the sun was shining on your face.
That was the last day
We were together,
And, now all I have is regret.
Regret over losing you.

I’m in the outside world finally
My foot has reached soil again,
And I feel the air of opportunity around me.
I’ll do whatever it takes
To avoid the mistakes of the past.

I’m not looking to start a fire,
Not looking to arouse my anger,
I’m only looking to the stars tonight,
To a life where I can be myself,
My existence will be one of promise
And not of disappointment.

My mind may be in the shambles now
That my girlfriend is long gone.
Most of my family has moved away,
So it’s just me and God.
Here to conquer this land.
I have a mission to show
The youth of society
That a life filled with crime
And without respect is not worth it
And you’ll pay the price in time.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

The Tragedy Part I



The Tragedy Part I
July 10th-July 13th, 2009
Influenced by: A man who changed his life around.
This is part one of a two-part story.

Chorus:
Behind a jail cell,
I wait for the day,
The day I get freedom,
The day I get a chance.
Every night, I fill my routine
With prayers.
Prayers that will hopefully
Be answered someday.

The sun was shining so brightly
The day I destroyed my opportunity.
The way my lady lost control,
The way my child looked at me
With the saddest eyes.

Pre-Chorus:
This tragedy which I caused
Can never be un-done.
I know the lives I affected,
I know the damage I have done,
If I could give them back their peace,
Trust me, I would.

Behind a jail cell…

Chorus

The handcuffs hurt so bad,
Especially when you have guilt on you’re conscious.
Cursed are my days now
As I look forward to spending
An eternity rotting in this hell.

Pre-Chorus
Chorus

Bridge
After spending years in isolation,
I’ve written tons of poetry
About the days we’ll be together again.
Every moment I’ve been without you
Is another moment I spend in pain.

Oh god, give me back my baby…

Chorus

Friday, September 14, 2012

The Man I Used To Love



The Man I Used To Love
July 26th-July 28th, 2009
 I wrote this one out of fantasy,
but very important subject.

I just can’t save you now.
You’re going around in circles
Wondering where all you’re money went.
You’re calling all you’re friends
And driving us crazy with you’re hatred.
You’re doing things to you’re yourself
That I can’t even dream of.

All the pills that you take,
All the promises that you never keep,
And all that I tears I cry
Over the man I used to love.

Pre-Chorus:
You’re throwing you’re life away,
You’re best friend is you’re drug dealer.
The only family you have left is me,
You’re throwing you’re life away
All I see on your face
Is a world full of sorrow & regret,
Please god, bring my angel back to me.

Chorus:
This is the man I used to love,
This is the soul I used to admire,
Gone are the dreams we used to have
I wonder if the man I loved
Will ever come back again.

You use to bring me gifts of pleasure,
Now, all I see are sights of torture.
Blood on your used syringes
That white, powdered substance on
Our coffee table.
All the commotion, all the fights,
We never make love anymore.

You’re sinking faster into debt,
You’re only desire is more drugs,
You can’t hold down a job,
You hardly spend time with your family anymore.

Pre-Chorus
Chorus

I pray for you every night
That you will snap out of you’re funk.
I realize it’s just a dream
And I have to wake up soon,
And walk out that door.