Friday, June 29, 2012

No Fear...In Love


No Fear…In Love
September 5th-September 9th, 2007
This one is very personal,
but it's kind of a neat story. :)

My life used to be so simple and safe.
I used to just wait at home and
Dream for someone to come along-
Who would let me run away with them…
I was so closed down then.

But, when you came into my home,
You took everything away from me
And left me so bitter and cold that night.

I pulled the covers up over me
And prayed to God to put me to sleep,
Can’t you see I’m crying?
Crying for someone to take me out of here.

Chorus:
I shivered the whole night through
But I still did my job,
And I still functioned completely,
I still carried the fire in my conversations,
And I still had time to love you.

When I started dating online,
I didn’t have any clear set views or goals,
I just wanted a reason not
To be in that awful place.

I met some great men
And I met some disgusting men.
I had some great times with you
But I also had nightmares
Not worth having again.
And, when I met a man
Who wouldn’t take no for an answer,
I knew I had to escape
So I ran, ran as hard as I could,
Into the night---
And back to that awful place.

Chorus

Bridge
I don’t know why
I’ve done all these things
Yet with so little regret.
I don’t know why I can’t
Do things in moderation
And concentrate on one thing at a time.
But, I know now
That I’ve grown from my mistakes.

2 ½ months after that awful day,
I met one of the greatest men ever.
It undid all the drama, hurt,
I had experienced over the summer.
It gave me a new chance
To be happy again.

I love you so much
And I’m more than fortunate
To have found you.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Love & Lust


Love & Lust
May 27th, 2008
This one is sort-of neat,
explicit content, you've been
warned! Lol. ;)

When I sit down on my couch,
And its dark outside,
I began to get lonely
And I start to think about you.

Pushing me against the wall
And trying to fit it inside.
My mind goes crazy as I
Feel torn between fear & lust.
My legs start to shake
And you pull me up
So we can do it on your bed.
You lay me on my stomach
And start slamming into me from behind.

Oh how I want you here
To hold me.

Chorus:
Tonight, I’m feeling the pain
Cause it’s been too long since
I woke up in your arms.
The demands of the world
Are keeping me from
Seeing my baby.

When I lay in my bed,
I start to contemplate my universe.
Then I began to get horny
And I think of your beautiful face.

You roll me over on your bed,
And slide it back in.
I start breathing heavy
And running my hands through your hair.
You push my legs up over you’re head
An start pounding my ass harder.
I pull up to kiss your tender lips
As you lift me up
To ride your sweet cock.

Tonight, I’m feeling a different kind of pain
Cause it’s been so long
Since I’ve had you deep inside me.
You know I have to work now
To make me some money,
But it creates so much sadness
Between us when we can’t see each other.
The demands of this world
Are keeping us apart…

Bridge
The first night we met,
We hit it off so well.
But, that was a month ago
And I want to be with my honey tonight.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Driving Me Insane


Driving Me Insane!
June 3rd, 2007
This is an interesting old one
I found recently. :)


Stuck in this place,
I’ve got nowhere to go.
The constant screaming,
The constant laughter,
The constant rebellion
Is driving me insane…

Driving me insane…

I try to meet guys off the internet
But I don’t like any of them.
I don’t like anybody.
There are so many old guys out there
Trying to pick up guys like us.
It’s driving me insane…

It’s driving me insane…

Chorus:
Going on and on
Trying to find my way out.
The pain goes on
But all I can do is shout.
I reach for his hand
But he’s not there anymore.
I need my man
To come and take care of me.

Stuck in my office job,
Typing 10-key as fast as I can.
There’s no end in sight
In this mountain-load of invoices.
All the demands,
All the stress
…is driving me insane…
Driving me insane…

Chorus

Driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
You’re driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
You’re all driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
You’re driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
Driving me insane…
You’re all driving me insane…

Monday, June 18, 2012

Double-Vision


Double-Vision
August 19th-August 29th, 2007
Everyone has felt like this 
before. :)


Until I met Chad,
I’d never had
A real relationship with a man before.
But, now that I’ve found you,
I feel happier than I’ve ever felt before.
So happy that I want to spend
Every night alone with you.
Every morning
That I’ve woken up to your face,
And every night,
When we’ve fallen asleep together
Have been the best times of my life, so far.
We seem perfect for each other.
So, why am I not content with just you?

Eighteen months ago,
When I met Kenny,
Me and you hit it off so well together.
We made out constantly,
Had great sex
And even shared a few laughs.
But, every night has to
Come to an end.

But, when I found out you
Still wanted me, I knew
I couldn’t refuse.
So, I let you take me
By the hand once again.
It was one of the greatest
Nights I’ve had so far
But now that I’ve done it,
I feel really, really bad.
Not cause I cheated,
But because I can’t decide
Between the two of you.

Chorus:
I love you both so much,
I’m a slave to your touch,
When you kiss me,
And hold me all night,
How I could possibly say no
To the man of my dreams?

I remember the first time
We ever had sex.
We had so much fun
With you on top
Just making love to me.
I wish sex between you and me
Was that hot every time.
I wish we could cuddle all weekend long
But I still got my eyes on Kenny
And I’ve known Kenny for a long time.
I feel really awkward
Cause I love both of you
So much that I could cry.

Chorus

I want you so bad.