I Guess

I Guess

04/15/2012-05/20/2012

Dedicated to:  Memories Of Alex Papadopoulos

Brand New Poem. :)

Alex, I really loved you so,

So I don’t get why you had to lie.

I tried my very, very best with you,

So why’d you have to do your worst with me?

You always went too fast,

And I never understood why.

I tend to go slow in relationships

Like the tides of the ocean.

But with you, I made the worst mistake of all,

I let my guard down and let you into my life,

I was so happily engaged,

Until the truth made its way to my ears.

I guess I should stop complaining now,

And start to see someone else.

But, I’m still in love with you.

It’s so hard to start over from scratch,

When you’ve spent so much time,

And spilled so much blood,

Just to find the one that will be true to you.

The love we had for each other was once in a lifetime,

We can never go back to the start now.

The moments we shared together will be in my heart forever,

And, I’ll never love another man again,

Cause I’ll always be in love with you.

My family seemed happy with me,

But also a little concerned as we

We're rushing too marriage too fast.

It's so easy to be overwhelmed by love,

That you’re head gets lost in make-believe,

Where you don't have to worry about reality anymore,

and you ignore common sense.

You and I have certainly paid the price for this Alex.

I guess I could call you right now,

And yell at the top of my lungs,

But, that wouldn’t accomplish anything,

I would only be driving us further apart.

You try and ask me for a second chance,

But you’re smart enough to know

That it would never be the same,

I’d be holding grudges against you,

And you, my old friend, would still be

So intensely stuck in your insecurities.

The love we had for each other was once in a lifetime,

We can never go back to the start now.

The moments we shared together will be in my heart forever,

And, I’ll never love another man again,

Cause I’ll always be in love with you.

With every dream, comes that moment where you have to wake up,

And come back to face reality.

I’ve picked myself up again,

And carried myself to a better life after Alex.

I know eventually, I’ll find myself a real man,

But, I just don’t know why this relationship with you

Has affected me so deeply…

The love we had for each other was once in a lifetime,

We can never go back to the start now.

The moments we shared together will be in my heart forever,

And, I’ll never love another man again,

Cause I’ll always be in love with you,

My sweet Alex. J