Burning

Burning

December 30^th, 2007-January 6^th, 2008

Semi-old love poem.

I am so heart-broken

But I’m not giving up yet,

I’ve gone miles and miles

Just to get here

And I won’t stoop to my grave

And close myself down again

Cause someone ripped my heart apart.

Pre-Chorus

I want all my friends to know

What I’ve been doing all this time.

I’ve pushed you guys away

To go on voyages of my own,

But I should have embraced you all with open arms.

Chorus:

My life has taken a twist

Since you pushed me out the door

Like I’ve done to so many men myself.

Now, it’s so cold outside

And cold inside my heart.

But, I’ve got to keep on believing,

Believing in a better life.

I’ve got so many worries

Inside my mind

That are just burning up…

Burning up my consistency.

But, I won’t lower myself

To a weaker conscious

And become more like you.

Pre-Chorus

Chorus

Chapters of our love, burning,

The ashes fall to the ground

And the wind carries them away.

Our memories will live on

Vividly inside our hearts,

But our minds will punish

Us with regret.

I’ll never forget the time,

I tried so hard to help but I made everything worse.

I’ll never forget the time

I was the one getting dumped.

I never forget all the times

I was treated unfairly.

And, you’ll never forget the day

That I wouldn’t let you

Walk all over me anymore.

Below Freezing

Below Freezing

December 24^th-December 25^th, 2007

Something a little bit different this time. :)

Chorus:

The snow keeps coming down,

And the ice haunts me in the streets,

But I keep moving forward

Into the future.

The temperature drops below freezing

And everyone stays inside,

But I keep moving forward,

Towards the finish line.

Verse 1

After I moved from Mom’s house,

I’ve given dating a rest

And focused more on me.

I’ve got my own life now

Got my own responsibilities now.

It feels so good to have freedom

After down-spiraling for so long.

Chorus

Verse 2

I’ve lived with so many

Family members that

It’s sickening to see that

I haven’t gotten

Much back in return.

I’ve gotten so much trauma,

Just for putting up with you guys.

I walked away from all this

And have resurged along the way.

Chorus

Bridge

I no longer have to worry much

About what my siblings

Think of all my sexual partners.

No longer do I have to worry about

My boy-friend coming home

And introducing himself to my mom.

Because, I am free.

Thank You God, I am free.

Beautiful

Beautiful

June 16^th, 2008

An infamous poem lol. 

I wanted you so bad,

I wanted to cuddle with you all summer long.

I wanted to kiss your sweet, tender lips

And fall asleep inside you.

Baby, we met and

Hit it off great from the start.

So, I don’t understand why

We are no longer friends.

Chorus:

Man, why are you so sad?

You are so dam beautiful,

So I don’t understand you’re tears,

And I don’t understand

why we can’t fuck anymore.

I have such a crush on you

That I just can’t let you go,

And move onto something else.

Please, let me back into your life.

I want to cuddle with you right now

And rest my head on your chest.

I want to hear you tell me again:

That I am so hot to you.

Baby, when we met for the first time

We hung out for so long.

So, I don’t understand why

You won’t talk to me anymore.

Chorus

I know we only knew each

Other for a short time

But I swear I was in love with you.

Youth

Youth

Memorial Day 2006

Great Older Poem. :)

When I was young,

I use to be insecure,

I use to be shy.

I use to be picked on,

I use to feel awful.

Chorus:

When I was young,

I use to daydream all the time

About how great a utopia would be.

I use to be so afraid of the real world

That I created a world out of my fantasies.

I had no sense of direction,

I was lost…

I was behind the rest of the boys,

It seemed like it took me years to catch up.

Even when I was in High School,

I still felt like I was a little boy.

A little boy who was surrounded

By a bunch of bigger, scary men.

Chorus

Well, I’m not a little boy anymore

And this man is coming to get you.

When I was young,

I use to think about the day I would become a man.

Even if I’m not a man as I write this,

I’m a man when I finish this.

Sad Days (rough draft)

Sad Days

05/31/2012

Watching for you from the corner of my eye,

All the time, 24/7, non-stop.

I’m more paranoid than ever,

Cause of the damage we’ve done to each other.

Pre-Chorus:

The stakes are high,

The adrenaline flows,

The drama continues,

A part of me wants it to end,

But most of me wants it to continue,

Cause it gives me a rush…

Chorus 1:

An innocent little accident

To my worst enemy

Can be my very best friend.

You pushing me down the stairs

Did not break me, or deform me,

It only turned me into a monster.

So guilty over what I’ve done,

I was paid to commit the crime

Against humanity.

It wasn’t just for the money,

You destroyed my friends, my family,

My career, my everything…

I had to make the best move possible.

Repeat Pre-Chorus

Chorus #2:

An innocent little accident

To my worst enemy

Can be my very best friend.

But, I feel I have only motivated

You to take revenge against me,

And the same old thing keeps continuing,

It keeps going, the pressure never stops,

The pain never comes to an end!

Ohh,

It fills me with such regret,

A feeling of melancholy

When I think of how it could have been,

And how you cast me out of your life.

Sad days when you think of how we used to be friends,

And how we insist on hurting each other now.

It’s sad days when you feel it’s spiraling out of control,

And you just can’t stop yourself from sinking your teeth in.

I think back to the days when we would walk together in the sun,

And, even when our life’s were depressing as hell,

We at least had the comfort of each other’s friendship

To keep us more balanced in life.

Now, you and me have nothing,

There’s nothing left we can give each other.